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About a month ago I was lying on the bed in the emergency room of the Institute of Liver and Biliary Sciences, Vasant Kunj, Delhi because I happened to be suffering from pancreatitis for the 10th/11th time. As usual my parents panicked, especially my father. He couldn’t stop but think ‘Why again?’ My mom though alarmed was calm. She always has been the emotionally stronger person than my father when it comes to my health. My brother saw me in this pancreatic pain for the second time with the memory of the first one fading, or maybe not. He asked me if I was sad about having the attack again. My instant reply was-

 “Why should I be sad? What’s there to be sad about? I have already suffered around 9/10 times and the pain decreases with each attack. It’s not a big deal anymore. As long as I have the pain, I can’t talk or do anything else. But when it subsides I am happier than I normally am. I am so used to it that if I don’t have it in three to six months, it seems unusual. It has become a part of my survival. If I crib asking why why and why again, would it mean that I won’t suffer anymore? No, so you see that while being happy can benefit me, being sad can’t.”

So you know now how used I am to this pancreatitis. I am suffering from common cold and fever and it seems like I am going through something really big, huge in fact. I have been so habituated to diseases like pancreatitis, gastritis, mucositis that I had completely forgotten that fever/common cold is something that people suffer from every now and then. Here I am sneezing continuously since last couple of days and honestly, I am tired. I may be used to the greenish puke during severe pancreatitis but seeing the yellowy cough makes me sicker. While I can smile and talk continuously with ache in my stomach, I can’t do so because my nose is turning red.
This is exactly how I look while I am writing all this.
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Sometimes my own behavior gives me a shock. How much weirder can I get?  It’s like I can't react to some situations like normal people do. Someday people around me are literally going to kill me with their ‘What-the-hell’ look and as far as I can see that time isn't far away. And all the people who are giving such looks while reading this; I just want say that- ‘Right now I am too young to die. Please save your looks for the next 6-7 decades.’  [:-P]


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Amrita said…
Hugs to you :) May you live a really really long life and continue to inspire and influence people around you. Your continued presence in this world is very much needed because there are a lot of extraordinary things that you have to accomplish yet :) :)
7 May 2013 at 20:10
Akankshya Abismruta said…
Thank you so much Aunty.. I really love your comments and always you make me smile :)
7 May 2013 at 21:26

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