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I am Scared.

I am scared.

Fear brings the best in you out, I have heard.

The fear of losing people and the fear of taking second chances have been my greatest fears for a long while now.

Friendship is my greatest weakness.

Promise isn’t the word I fancy; I have issues with the concept that follows.

Easier it is to deal with a damaged soul than the healing one.

Pain is a feeling familiar, pleasure is hard to digest.

Commitments I try to make not.

Love I try to stay away from but once into it, I cannot pull away.

Nothing changes my mind but I will take the bend in the road for someone I love way too much.

Loving isn’t my forte, I do not know how to use it. My story isn’t about loving everyone; it is always about loving someone way too hard!

Moving on I am slow at.

There is everything and nothing I can do about it.

If I could, I would stop and smile.

The curve is easy to make, easier to fake.

Taking risks, baiting my life to death is fun for me.

Put it all together and it forms the greatest risk I am taking, it won’t take my life, I am not scared of death.

Not again in my life I want to be NUMB, not again.

The wind blows, the river flows, the birds fly.

Trapped in my own mind I am behind the bars.

Living a lie is comfortable. The truth behind is another illusion.

I am just another human.


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