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The Forbidden Fruit

Scattered thoughts, piled up emotions, unsaid words, unheard pleas, silent screams, loud whispers, gambled heart, caged mind, broken bonds.

Random words probably mean nothing, nothing at all. Or maybe they tell an entirely different story at once. You know something is wrong if you’re working continuously but not working at all. It doesn’t matter what people around you say or feel. You’re occupied with a vision. A vision of the life you always dreamt of living but you cannot. You dreamt of being a free bird that could fly wherever it wants, wherever the need be. But now you find yourself in a cage. You struggle harder everyday to break the bars and fly out into the azure sky, you can’t. You cannot survive but you have to. You do not want to die so you need to breathe. Your dream is what keeps your heart pumping; it is hard to get what you want. You may be killed in the process but you will die with the satisfaction that you did whatever it took to turn your dream into reality. But there is a problem – the path to your dream. It is tempting and keeps you going. Somewhere deep within yourself, you know that walking on that path is the biggest blunder you will ever make. Not because it will kill you but because it will kill all the people around you too. You say you don’t give a damn, but you do.

Life has its own way to teach you lessons. There is a purpose of everything that happens to you. You want to figure out what it is but you can’t. Probably you know what it is but do not want to accept it. Believing in the purpose will make you choose the harder way to reach your goal. You think your goal is the dream that you see every morning when you wake up. But it is not. There is a thin line between a long desired dream and the goal of your life. Your dream is an illusion. Your goal is the reality. It is clichéd but true. Your dream is tempting but a mistake. Your goal is difficult but it will set you on the right track.

There comes a moment when you need to decide. The temptation lures you into the road often travelled but you know choosing the road less travelled is the right thing to do. But it has thorns and you want just the roses. What do you do? You let yourself dwell between the two roads till your mind is empty. You do not know anything anymore. You’re as new as an infant who hasn’t been taught the right and the wrong. You struggle. You try to recall. But only your dream and your goal flash in front of you. There is a deafening silence which makes your head hurt. You fall trying to make the silence go away. It wouldn’t till you get into a road. You try to have a look at both. One of them is the bright but the forbidden fruit, the other is dark but it has welcoming vibes. However the fruit is tempting and your mind is yet another Eve. So what do you do? Which road do you eventually travel?


You know the fate of Eve and so the answer is obvious. Knowing what is the right thing to do is one thing accomplishing it is another. You’re lost within your own thoughts. Temoprarily! You keep trying to break the bars when you can easily walk through it. All you need to do is believe that you’re free and stop looking for your freedom. You’re blinded. You need to open your eyes. Things are just the way they should be. It is just your mind that is playing tricks with you. But it is yours to take care of. You’re wiser than Eve ever was!


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Pramod said…
I am happy you enjoy it and get to know your individuality thru it.

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